I was not mainly a devotee of Guruji, but on December 26, 2013, I lost my brother-in-law to mouth cancer. My sister was grieving, as was my entire family. Due to my sister’s unstable emotional state, she drove me out of her house. I was visiting her from the U.S., and at that time, I decided to go and stay at the Bangalore ashram. I went every evening to Vishalakshi Mantap, the main meditation hall (or the lotus hall, as I like to call it), and Guruji was there every day in January 2014. I enjoyed my Ayurvedic treatment and the Sudarshan Kriya. I had learned the kriya while in the US when I was forced by friends a couple of years earlier but was not practicing it. I felt different doing the kriya at the ashram. I felt as if I was happy for no reason. I had dreams of Guruji during my Ayurvedic treatments.
In mid-January, I entered the hall with my mother, who had come to visit me at the ashram. Guruji asked if it was anyone’s birthday during that week. I celebrated my own birthday recently, but my husband’s birthday was on the 16th. Everyone whose birthday it was stood up, so I too stood up and shouted, looking towards Him, that 16th was my husband’s birthday. He was throwing flowers at all the people, but He saw me, and took a garland from His hand, and threw it towards me. It landed precisely around my neck! Everyone inside the hall shouted and gasped. My mom, who was next to me, had tears in her eyes, and she was proud of me. Till then, I was simply going to the ashram blindly.
I recently joined the Sahaj Samadhi course in August 2022, but until then, I didn’t realize the magnitude of my experience. Now when I meditate, He sits in front of me. He has been visiting me in my dreams every month. Just last night, He again came into my dreams. I was just sitting next to Him, and He kept smiling. In my dream, I told myself to ask Him the questions I had always wanted. But my mind in my dream was dumbstruck and in shock. I asked him later what the physics behind negative energy was. For that, He jumped and said Ah, on Amavasya day, write “Om Shri Rama” around your puja altar. He showed me my puja altar.
I woke up at 7 a.m., and I usually wake up at 5.30 and do my meditation around 6 a.m. But today, I couldn’t as I was in pain due to my uterine fibroid. I felt a little sad that I didn’t ask him anything about my family’s welfare or my health issues. Then I consoled myself that it was a blessing He even came into my dream. I am a nobody, not a real devotee, no knowledge, no discipline, nothing. All I can say is He is truly divine, and I got lucky. I am grateful to the divine for forever showing me the path and sending divine souls to teach me and guide me further on my path. I pray that my children and husband realize the divine being that Guruji is and find their peace too. I am a Shirdi Saibaba devotee, and I see that Baba speaks through Guruji too.
