Beyond the Loss: Finding Strength Through Spirituality

In the year 2006, at the age of 22, I had just wrapped up a long night shift and was on my way home, utterly exhausted and eager to rest. As I got to my building, I met my father downstairs. He was off to the bank and he mentioned that my mother was really in a bad mood and angry. I rushed to the apartment and I could hear loud voices when I walked in. My mother and my maternal grandmother were in the middle of an argument.
I was completely clueless as to what was going on. After finishing a long night shift, I was exhausted and just wanted to sleep. I felt that this was not the right time to talk to my mother as she was not in the best frame of mind. So, I decided to head to my aunt’s house, just ten minutes away so that I could catch up on some sleep there. I was hopeful that by the time I woke up, my mother would have calmed down.
I have always believed that there is no problem in the world that can’t be solved. All it really takes is sitting down and talking things out. With this thought in mind, I went to my aunt’s place and quickly fell asleep.
The doorbell rang after a few minutes followed by loud banging. Half-asleep, I opened the door to find my neighbor standing there with my grandmother. The sight of her left me completely stunned. I can’t even put into words what I felt at that moment. My mind started racing with a million questions, doubts, and fears.
They had come to take me home. As I followed them back, I saw almost everyone from my building had gathered downstairs and some were there inside my house.
As I stepped into my house, the sight before me shattered me-my mother lay there in my sister’s lap. She was no more. I was completely choked and and my mind went blank. I could not accept the harsh reality unfolding before my eyes.
My mother was gone and life became an overwhelming challenge. I had to find the strength within myself to pick up the pieces and move forward. During this time, I found guidance and solace in my Gurudev Sri Sri Ravishankar. His support has been a beacon through the storm. Looking back, I now realize that it was with Gurudev’s help that I was able to navigate those difficult times, finding peace and resilience when it seemed impossible.
A new life began to unfold—one that has shaped me in ways I had never imagined. This journey has revealed and nurtured the strong, sensitive and resilient person within me.
Though more than 19 years have passed, this profound moment became the cornerstone of my spiritual journey with Gurudev. Life has been a beautiful blend of treasured moments and challenging ones.
It has helped me grow into a more mature and grounded individual. These experiences have taught me to truly value and cherish every moment of joy and happiness that life brings.
A mother’s influence on a child’s life is truly irreplaceable. Even after she left this world, my mother’s presence continued to shape my journey. In her absence, she became the unseen force that guided me towards my Guru, and in doing so, helped me find my way to my truest self.

-Deepti

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