I had a strong urge to touch Gurudev’s physical feet and take his blessings for several days. The urge to touch Gurudev’s feet and take his blessings grew with every passing day. One day, Gurudev appeared in my dreams – dressed in pure white and all-smiling as he always does. I quickly started to move towards him in my dream and made an attempt to touch his feet. When I was about to touch his feet and take blessings, Gurudev stepped back and said, “No-No, don’t do that.” I was shocked and felt very sad in my dream. I thought that I had missed out on a golden chance to seek his divine blessings.
Two weeks passed by, and I got an opportunity to attend a Satsang in my city. I had to travel by local train to attend the Satsang after work, and I reached the venue (a local church) well before Gurudev had arrived. I patiently waited for him to arrive and was constantly praying that evening. The moment he sat down, he made an announcement that today after the Satsang, he would personally come and meet all the devotees present there provided everyone maintains lane discipline and sits where they are while he gives darshan. I thought to myself, “This is the right time to take his blessings in physical form.”
The Satsang got over, and he started his darshan walk, meeting and greeting all the devotees. Unluckily, I was on the other far side to where Gurudev started to take his walk. By the time he arrived close, the gathering swelled, and everyone just rushed towards him, all lanes were discarded. I too wanted to go near but could not as there were too many people ahead of me. I thought to myself, “Maybe today is not the day again,” and I looked down sadly and sat down on my seat. Once the crowd became unmanageable, Gurudev then moved towards the left of the hall and started to make his way out of the church.
But suddenly, he changed his direction, walked a few steps back in my direction, and stopped – I felt strongly that he was asking me to come over. At that time, a small pathway (void of devotees) got created for me, and I went through all the way, and within a few seconds, I was right in front of him. Gurudev lifted his attire and showed his shoes to me. I got my chance, and I fell at his feet and took his blessings and felt so happy. He showed his feet to me, and I was tearful. My tears of joy had no bounds. At that moment, I realized why Gurudev had refused to touch his feet in my dream – only to make me experience it in real life.
My master is so loving, and I am so fortunate to be connected with him every moment that I live on this planet. The next day, I met another devotee who travels with him, and I narrated this real story. The devotee happened to be at the same Satsang at the church and mentioned to me that what Gurudev did that day was very abnormal. He was leaving the church but suddenly changed his direction and came all around the way towards where I was seated for no reason. But he came just for me – just to fulfill my desire and my dream.
Forever, I remain in debt to you, my love, my Gurudev. Please let me be near you always, today and tomorrow.
Jai Gurudev
– Giri
